Saturday, February 23, 2008

failures

This morning I made the mistake of watching videos of Body-Scan runs and was filled with self-loathing. Even a session of ashtanga practice could not get rid of the bitterness and anger at not being able to dance.

I confided this to Benoît and he said, are you crazy??

As opening night approaches, it becomes harder and harder to ascertain what is real, what is not.

4 comments:

Adriana Bucz said...

su-feh, you are the most beautiful dancer i have ever seen.
and, most certainly, quite crazy.

sufeh said...

Thank you Adriana. Very kind of you. And I will very happily accept your reassurances.

Adriana Bucz said...

But it's all true. I remember the first time I had the pleasure of seeing you onstage - in Spektator, and I was at a point where I was not sure I would continue in theatre (it was theatre versus paleontology). And I saw you onstage and was so completely mesmerized. I remember walking up to kugler after the performance and saying "For this, I will stay in the arts."

sufeh said...

wow. I'm glad you stayed in the arts. I feel much better today and I think I will kick ass next week when we open and when my solo opens.