Zab said that being white is not just the colour of your skin.
Being white is a political and economic privilege, either constructed by history or by oneself.
I can construct this white space and I do, despite my chinese skin, very often, during the day.
I construct it in the way I speak. In the languages I choose to speak.
I construct it in the way I dress. In the way I gaze at other people.
On the bus, when I encounter incidents of racism, I construct this white space around me. I "become" white so that these moments of violence do not touch me.
When I am with other white people, I construct this space by keeping silent about the things that would bother them. By adopting an interest in subjects that they deem universal. Such as motherhood, being a woman, being in love.
But I KNOW I am constructing this. I KNOW what I am stealing, where I have stolen it from and what I am doing with it. I do not have the privilege of denial. I do not have this privilege, not because my skin is not white, but because I have bartered that privilege away for the privilege of being an artist.